Rams, Part II

Almost a year ago, I wrote a post that my mom keeps trying to get me to clean up and submit for publication. I liked it. It was a good post.

I probably should have gone back and re-read it last Thursday when everything came crashing down. Because the minute I heard that my husband's contract wouldn't be renewed I just fell under the biggest cloud of despair. (Thanks again to all of you for prayers and kindnesses.)

But if I'd been even smart enough to go back and read what I had already written once I'd have been comforted by the ghost of troubles past.

As it is I feel like a total idiot right now. I feel like one of the Israelites who witnessed all ten of the plagues, the parting of the Red Sea, the drowning of pharoah's army and STILL stands in the desert whining about bread. I mean, honestly. Oh me of little faith.

Any way, all of this to say that while I was so busy fretting about my future I was ignoring the faithfulness of God. I'm such a human dolt.

And today, as He always does, God showed me the Ram in the Thicket. I don't deserve it, but I imagine He might be getting a good laugh out of the whole thing. Apparently a family member sold some land and decided to make an equal gift to all of us with a portion of the fruits from the land sale. It's not millions of dollars but it's enough to ensure that we can keep our house payments up and pay for COBRA for a couple of months. In short, it's what we need and enough is good as a feast.

So, yes, Lord, I'll try to be better about trusting You.